Brain swirls and catching up
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ianukStill in the depressive episode. It may be slowing or just steady? I don't know. I've been trying to just make things and read and not doom scroll too much. Last week was emotional with Benton graduating from the school he's been at since he was 4 years old. He was part of the 26 kids out of his class that was there for the whole school. It was in the 90s when they finished the ceremony which was nice and the speakers were good from the class. The Kindergarteners brought a rose to each graduate and then the middle school (6 & 7) did the "clap out" by lining the walkway up the campus to the front gate and clapping as the graduates walked up the hill. I had tears for a lot of it. Think part of my emotional state is what the new normal is off of meds. OR its perimenopause of both or shrug.
We took a few pictures at the school sign. And then drove off campus for the last time. Benton requested brunch at Joe's. They were very busy with it being 1045am on a Thursday but it was nice to have a good breakfast/brunch. Then it was home where Benton relaxed and Mel and I started our work days. It was hard to get back to work but we managed.
Benton stayed home from martial arts so that let me relax after work without having to go do a pickup. I made him nuggies and mac as requested for dinner. I don't remember what I did on Thursday night but I think i was playing games. And asking Mel if he remembered x or y while packing for San Francisco. Friday he was up super early for his flight and I was awake when his alarm went off. I got working by 630 and had plenty to do for work. My to do list was off the page and I had a lot to accomplish. It was a lot and I had Benton managing things on his own which was playing video games. We had to hit the mall for bday presents for Mason. I got my massage and then it was out to Indian dinner for the birthday boy. Food was tasty at Indian Twist. We got home and again I don't recall what I did but watch some tv. I think I was in bed pretty late after going down a rabbit hole. I managed to started watching through the MCU I needed to catch up on.
Not day specific on the days but I watched and knitted through: Wakanda Forever, Echo, She-Hulk, and Ms. Marvel. Wakanda Forever was beautiful tribute to Chadwick, Echo was beautiful for the First Peoples mythos and storyline. I know folks called it slow paced but I'm pretty sure that was cause you have to read the subtitles. She-Hulk was funny and the finale was a bit off the rails but I hope they do a season 2. Ms. Marvel was an absolute delight. Seriously fun and while they didn't go with her usual origins it was fun and hit the mythos/magic fun. I need to open up the blue-ray of No Way Home since its not on Disney+. Yes that was a lot of TV but I also knit almost the entire time. And with Echo you had to read so that slowed me down. And my arms have been killing me. so Slower to knit and taking breaks.
Saturday I went to spinning at Grandma's and that was nice. Sunday I had a hair cut and grabbed some groceries, Monday I got drinks at Kon Tiki with Ari, Linnet and Percy. But that was about it. Benton spent a considerable amount of time sleeping and not cleaning his room. He did get some progress but its not where I had hoped it would be. We really, really need to do a purge.
Anyhoo...pretty boring and self centered weekend but I think it improved my mood a bit to be productive on a project?
I did a bit of cooking: Saturday night was ginger beef with noodles and Monday I did a potroast in the crockpot. It was perfect and the gravy was tasty. Go me.
Mel's flights were delayed so he got home at 1am but he had a good time and wants to go back to San Francisco to site see.
And yeah today I'm going to leave work and go to the gym. I'm the excuse for not going. It will suck but I will be happier doing it especially for how much I drank this weekend.
I'm still reading #15 for the year cause I read fanfic instead of my book cause it was making my brain feel slightly better.
But yeah is that.
We took a few pictures at the school sign. And then drove off campus for the last time. Benton requested brunch at Joe's. They were very busy with it being 1045am on a Thursday but it was nice to have a good breakfast/brunch. Then it was home where Benton relaxed and Mel and I started our work days. It was hard to get back to work but we managed.
Benton stayed home from martial arts so that let me relax after work without having to go do a pickup. I made him nuggies and mac as requested for dinner. I don't remember what I did on Thursday night but I think i was playing games. And asking Mel if he remembered x or y while packing for San Francisco. Friday he was up super early for his flight and I was awake when his alarm went off. I got working by 630 and had plenty to do for work. My to do list was off the page and I had a lot to accomplish. It was a lot and I had Benton managing things on his own which was playing video games. We had to hit the mall for bday presents for Mason. I got my massage and then it was out to Indian dinner for the birthday boy. Food was tasty at Indian Twist. We got home and again I don't recall what I did but watch some tv. I think I was in bed pretty late after going down a rabbit hole. I managed to started watching through the MCU I needed to catch up on.
Not day specific on the days but I watched and knitted through: Wakanda Forever, Echo, She-Hulk, and Ms. Marvel. Wakanda Forever was beautiful tribute to Chadwick, Echo was beautiful for the First Peoples mythos and storyline. I know folks called it slow paced but I'm pretty sure that was cause you have to read the subtitles. She-Hulk was funny and the finale was a bit off the rails but I hope they do a season 2. Ms. Marvel was an absolute delight. Seriously fun and while they didn't go with her usual origins it was fun and hit the mythos/magic fun. I need to open up the blue-ray of No Way Home since its not on Disney+. Yes that was a lot of TV but I also knit almost the entire time. And with Echo you had to read so that slowed me down. And my arms have been killing me. so Slower to knit and taking breaks.
Saturday I went to spinning at Grandma's and that was nice. Sunday I had a hair cut and grabbed some groceries, Monday I got drinks at Kon Tiki with Ari, Linnet and Percy. But that was about it. Benton spent a considerable amount of time sleeping and not cleaning his room. He did get some progress but its not where I had hoped it would be. We really, really need to do a purge.
Anyhoo...pretty boring and self centered weekend but I think it improved my mood a bit to be productive on a project?
I did a bit of cooking: Saturday night was ginger beef with noodles and Monday I did a potroast in the crockpot. It was perfect and the gravy was tasty. Go me.
Mel's flights were delayed so he got home at 1am but he had a good time and wants to go back to San Francisco to site see.
And yeah today I'm going to leave work and go to the gym. I'm the excuse for not going. It will suck but I will be happier doing it especially for how much I drank this weekend.
I'm still reading #15 for the year cause I read fanfic instead of my book cause it was making my brain feel slightly better.
But yeah is that.
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