Steadily she goes along.....
Jan. 9th, 2019 08:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ianukSo been reading a lot of "how to" or "how to change xyz" and one of the things someone pointed out was that over the holiday I was much more "me". All of the stress and crazy from work had made me not the best person. I had realized it kinda but yeah...need to fix that. I get stressed, I get snippy and that is not good in a manager. Sighs. So, working on keeping life settled I'm determined to keep up on my physical activity cause that really does help me handle stress and try to make different choices of how I deal with things. Its hard to unwire yourself but if I can see the triggers I can change my habitual responses. The first is with Benton...I get to yelling too quickly. I'm trying to rationalize things from his perspective of I deal with him unmedicated (before and aftermeds) and tired. I'm tired too and that is no reason for grumpies with other people. We tell him to do the same thing and if we don't do it that is not a good lesson.
So, both my deputy and I at work are not staying late. We are laying things/terms out for everyone and just trying to manage things "nicer". Its hard when we make a prediction, horribleness happens like we said it would if we didn't do XYZ and then we have 2 days to fix it. If they had just done it how we said to do it the first time.....but that is reality. We have to stop being surprised by it and just deal.
So, had a grumpy hangry boy last night and I was hangry too. But I had Benton help get his own dinner together and be responsible for things and it worked out well. He ate good, showered well and wasn't up too late. While he was in teh shower I did not sit on my phone reading or playing games but I sorted out the clean laundry and put it the eff away. I need to get mel to install the hooks I got so I can hang my sweaters and shawls up easily. Then they have a place to go. I also need to get a few more bins for woolens/sca head gear so they aren't cluttering things up. But positive steps. Then I handled the food situation for the war (i.e. figured out which days we are eating what and lining up pre-cooks). By the time I had finished that there wasn't time for frivolous things like knitting so I got my ass to bed. Getting enough sleep is also on my lists of things to try to be better to myself. So, I'm trying...I really am.
Tonight is knitting and then strength club. We shall see how that goes. Not sure what time I need to leave knitting before I get to strength club and change. I may just change at knitting we shall see. All in all things are okay and I'm inspired to be working on projects and have picked out a hat and 2 pairs of mitts to make for Mel, Bob my deputy and myself.
So, both my deputy and I at work are not staying late. We are laying things/terms out for everyone and just trying to manage things "nicer". Its hard when we make a prediction, horribleness happens like we said it would if we didn't do XYZ and then we have 2 days to fix it. If they had just done it how we said to do it the first time.....but that is reality. We have to stop being surprised by it and just deal.
So, had a grumpy hangry boy last night and I was hangry too. But I had Benton help get his own dinner together and be responsible for things and it worked out well. He ate good, showered well and wasn't up too late. While he was in teh shower I did not sit on my phone reading or playing games but I sorted out the clean laundry and put it the eff away. I need to get mel to install the hooks I got so I can hang my sweaters and shawls up easily. Then they have a place to go. I also need to get a few more bins for woolens/sca head gear so they aren't cluttering things up. But positive steps. Then I handled the food situation for the war (i.e. figured out which days we are eating what and lining up pre-cooks). By the time I had finished that there wasn't time for frivolous things like knitting so I got my ass to bed. Getting enough sleep is also on my lists of things to try to be better to myself. So, I'm trying...I really am.
Tonight is knitting and then strength club. We shall see how that goes. Not sure what time I need to leave knitting before I get to strength club and change. I may just change at knitting we shall see. All in all things are okay and I'm inspired to be working on projects and have picked out a hat and 2 pairs of mitts to make for Mel, Bob my deputy and myself.
