Chinese curse level of interesting....

When last I wrote i was heading into the weekend for my Apprentice to graduate to the Laurel. I had a dress to finish, which I did on Thursday. It was finished enough to wear. I did not get the over the shoulder and sleeve seams hand finished but it was done enough to wear. I got clothes for Benton expanded/fixed to have things to wear. We got up early on Saturday and made our way to the event and it went really well even though my apprentice was almost late for her own ceremony. She had got to do her makeup at the start of court and they were super quick with all of the awards and I sent zoe to go get her. But it turned out well. Baron Master Sym did a wonderful presentation of what the ceremony is for and explained each part. We were able to cajole the Crown that they had nothing to do but say the oath. It worked well even though HRM tried to only nave folks stand for the candidate and my hubby said he would stand for the knights and speak for them as well. Which is his ducal prerogative. It was a busy day of art and chatting with people. We left after court and headed to Rudy's for BBQ. It was storming which was a weirdness for Phx considering September in Phx had more rain than Seattle. But yeah. It was strange. But almost all of Hrafnheim had dinner together. which was nice. We even got Deletha and the kids.

And other than sleeping in on Sunday the rest of the week was pants. Pants on fire.

Sunday night I got a call from mom's assisted living facility that her g-tube had fallen out. This is her feeding tube that we aren't really using much anymore but for end of life they may need to...so I took her to the emergecny room. We had a new hospital open up and they were very nice and they put in a foley (catheter) since they did not have g-tubes in stock. Monday morning it fell out again. We had it replaced. So I spent more time in the ER from Sunday to Monday than I did sleeping. So I struggle bussed the rest of the week and then was arguing with the oncologist about scheduling for them to install a g-tube. But they basically said that they would let it heal over if it fell out again. So Friday when it fell out I just told her caregivers to bandage it and keep an eye on it. Also during that week we had her PET scan. We went out for lunch to Millies Pancake Haus and she gorged herself on a full stack and most of a bottle of syrup. This woman is a humming bird.

Saturday was an event down in Sonoita. Surprise surprise there were speakers for the candidates...the queen loves to hear them. So that is a good thing. We attended for a laurelling of Mistress Eilith who was originally from Outlands and when she was Baroness of Citadel of the Southern Pass (El Paso), I gifted her my Grace as Queen. She had travelled and provided choral music and it brightened my day when I felt like pure ish. I had given it to her at Battlemore so her kingdom could see her awesomeness. So we were glad to see her get elevated.

Sunday was somewhat relaxing but more tiring. Mel left on business and Benton and I needed to get some chores. I was done by the time we got back from the grocer but it was okay. Mel landed safely in Utah and I got a nice evening.

Monday was a Monday and then it was way more of a Monday after the call from the oncologist. I had read teh PET scan report on Saturday and while it looked dire I didn't read it the way he did. Its not that I don't trust him, I just didn't see it as bad as it is. Re-reading it and previous reports...yeah its bad. Even two months ago he mentioned hospice care but this conversation it was "we are stopping treatment immediately
and start hospice care" He stated it was days to weeks left for her to live. While that may not be the complete case...shes under 100 pounds and is weak and her memory is going so this is the beginning of the end. We knew the caner was winning. Just weren't sure when we'd be in the last quarter. I guess its now.

I called and told Mel and when they were on the way home by plane his boss said he was to take the next day off to take care of me and Benton. I was just going to handle things by myself which is so not the right answer at all. I was glad she said that and I took the day as well. Had a meeting with the assisted living staff, told mom the news, got hospice care set up so at least that part is handled. Its going to a be a slow grind until its not. I'm just exhausted...can't seem to concentrate well or sleep enough. Probably drinking too much but meh. Honestly. I'm not getting drunk.

It better news I managed to finish the #35 book which is Saints and Sinners by Jennifer Roberson, I also started and finished #36 Susan Vowell's The Partly Cloudy Patriot...omg the corrallary between the 2002 election and now and Trump and stuff was fucking eerie. History does repeat...wow.

Now I'm in #37 for the year which is Quantum of Nightmares by Charlie Stross. Back in the New Management series. I like some of the characters but not all of them. But its still a trip. I'm about half way through. Next on the docket...I'm uncertain. We shall see how this one ends if I read the next one right away.

But that is life in a nutshell...pretty sucky.